2.11.2015

Quit Your Etsy Shop: I got a day job!

In July 2009, a few months after my husband took a 50% pay cut and I wrapped up a two-year teaching gig, a perk of my very expensive graduate art school education, we shipped the cats home with the mother-in-law, stuffed one Pod full of all our belongings, and hopped on a one-way flight, one-year-old in tow, back to Oakland, California, where we'd met and eventually married four years earlier.


The daunting task of starting fresh in a city so familiar to us was a small comfort in a time of great uncertainty. My husband continued to work for the Boston-based start-up company remotely from his desk crammed into a corner of our bedroom, while I performed the duties of default stay-at-home-mom. I began the process of applying to teaching gigs anew (following a first round of applications that seemed to evaporate into the digital ether), while simultaneously sending résumés to more traditional office jobs at art schools, in art museums, etc. Earlier that spring, I, like so many other creative types at that time, opened an Etsy shop. Then I opened another one. Business started to pick up. Wedding invitation orders trickled in. My Android phone cases were featured on blogs like Mashable, GeekSugar, and Apartment Therapy. Wow! When my son began to flip his toddler switch, I investigated part-time daycare, eventually securing 3 days of child-free time most weeks to focus on my budding business. By our one-year anniversary back in Oakland, the start-up company my husband worked for had been acquired, his full pay restored, and Color Bird Studio (previously RBG Color Design) was a legitimate sole proprietorship. After a second round of unsuccessful teaching applications, I happily embraced the phrase "accidental entrepreneur."


That same summer we bought our first house. Even though we felt a bit "house poor" at times, having a home meant we could stretch out a bit. Over time, we converted the third bedroom into an office/studio. My son eventually transitioned to preschool, giving me even more time each week to run my micro-business. I bought a YuDu screenprinting system (and wrote about it here and here) and incorporated custom-printed wraps and envelope liners into my designs. I added a fancy new printer to my studio and extensive storage options for all my paper and envelopes and twine. I worked on overall organization, efficiency, and daily workflow. I investigated eventually hiring an accountant and maybe even an assistant to help with assembling orders. In September 2011, I attended the Hello Etsy conference at CCA in San Francisco. I finally felt like I was really a part of this amazing community. I ran a marathon with Team in Training the following spring, and during training reached out to fellow Etsy sellers, many local, for fundraising donations. I ran a a really fun series on my blog, timed perfectly with the season of holiday promotions.



After the marathon, we decided to go for baby #2. During that pregnancy, I really mulled over the future of my creative efforts. I felt so grateful for a robust business. I loved having the opportunity to be creative every day and truly valued the freedom and flexibility it allowed me to be a work-at-home parent (whose kid was not at home, but at preschool most days, I might add ... important detail). But to be honest, I was starting to feel a little burned out. Partly pregnancy-induced, but following a month of intense preparation for the Patchwork craft fair in November 2012, I suffered from carpal tunnel syndrome so painful I eventually opted for cortisone injections in my wrists. By the time baby #2 was born, my plan involved closing up shop indefinitely while I mentally and physically recovered from a very busy 2 1/2 years. I wanted to be home with this one a little longer, maybe all the way to preschool age, and thought, after the first few months, surely I could manage a one- or two-fifths equivalent schedule during naps, post-bedtime, and on the weekend when my husband could help out more with the kids, right?



Wrong. I got very little done in 2013, other than keep two young children alive, healthy, and, usually, happy. If only I could get paid for that. Shortly after baby #2 turned 1, I utilized the skills of the same daycare gal who'd watched my son and once again enjoyed 2 to 3 days of child-free time each week. I went on afternoon adventures with my older kid the one day of the week his school gets out early. I caught up on projects around the house while I waited for business to pick up. It was fabulous. Until I accepted the sad fact that business might not just pick up on its own this time. A lot had changed at Etsy while I was away. International sellers were being featured much more frequently. There was this huge push to move into wholesale, not really an option for a shop that specializes in personalized products. I felt stuck in the middle, between so-called "fresh" shops and buzz-worthy, top tier sellers with wholesale accounts at Nieman Marcus and Nordstrom. Then there was chatter in the Forums about a big change to Google product ads. Good grief! By the end of last summer, sufficiently stressed out by my inability to cover my daughter's childcare expenses, I decided to pull her from daycare, performing the duties, once again, of default stay-at-home-mom. Let me try this WAHM thing again, I thought (that's work-at-home-mom, by the way, an elusive myth perpetuated by articles like this one and images like this. Lean in, my chewed up nipple! Come to think of it, though, maybe she's the nanny?). 


Anyway, it didn't take me long to remember how challenging that would be. Instead of trying to figure out how to revive my Etsy shop, I instead began spending naptime and post-bedtime polishing off my résumé and coming up with clever ways to address the series of detours (not a gap, per se) since my most recent, relevant professional experience which was, pre-grad school, almost 10 years ago (for example, my six years of "freelance" work had allowed me to focus on "personal projects"). After a month of focused job-hunting, I worried I had become unhirable, hearing nothing from positions I felt perfectly qualified for. "Not even an interview?!" I exclaimed repeatedly. But just as I had written off one job in particular, having been almost a month since I applied, I got an email request for an interview. I used daycare drop-ins that week to prepare for this interview uninterrupted. I solicited help from friends who'd paid lots of money to get advice from career coaches, something I was starting to consider for myself. I spent way more time than I should have staring at my closet, trying to figure out what to wear. I was so nervous I barely slept the night before. But at the end of my first interview, I was asked to return the next day for a second interview. And then a third. And then I got the job! I was admittedly torn about taking it. It's a bit of a personal (and creative) trade-off, to be sure. But it's a pretty posh gig in a lot of ways (decent pay, short commute, 7 1/2 hour work day, laidback office culture, generous sick/vacation time, some flexibility, oh and did I mention it's at an art school? Same art school that hosted the conference mentioned above. Funny full circle detail there...). 



And in a weird way, I'm cautiously optimistic that having a day job will allow me to refocus my spare time on more personally fulfilling creative work. I've genuinely enjoyed creating wedding invitations for couples, don't get me wrong, but I miss making my own work. You know, the kind that might never make money or even be seen! In the beginning of this adventure, previously used to spending money on art projects that might have zero financial return, I was seduced by the idea that people would pay me - in advance! - to do design work for them. But eventually that part of my creative life took over completely, leaving me little time to develop my own practice which, after all, is why I went to grad school. As Austin Kleon recently tweeted (love his advice for artists and writers and other creative types, by the way), "The work you do for pay supports the work you do for love and you should be grateful for both." That's from this Forbes article by J. Maureen Henderson. Great advice. Advice that I took. And I'm looking forward to seeing what opportunities this next chapter holds, whether or not it actually involves closing up shop.

2.09.2015

reverse sweatshop

About a week ago, cozied up with my smart phone after both kids were in bed, I was struck by a sponsored ad in my feed from Minted, urging me to check out their "unique" wedding invitations by pointing me to this design, a truly classic example if ever there was one, featuring a mix of script and block font in black ink on white paper, taking me back to my grad school day job days at Crane & Co. (more on that one-year gig in a future "burning bridges" post). Lovely though that design may be, "unique" it most certainly is not. I fired off a couple of cranky tweets about it, even engaging with the person who runs Minted's tweets a bit, and upon more digging, discovered that the designer, Cheree Berry of Cheree Berry Paper, formerly at kate spade, was the lead designer on that company's line of stationery, which was a collaboration with Crane & Co., a couple of years before my time. So it's not surprising that my first thought when I saw Minted's example of a "unique" wedding invitation was the same company that has printed the "the stationery, invitations and announcements for the White House."

Am I jaded and bitter? Sure. After all, Cheree Berry is living the independent designer's life I've wanted ever since giving up pretty much any dream of my own art practice and/or teaching. To go from working at kate spade (I love kate spade) to successfully running her own design business and custom stationery line is pretty impressive. And I should be happy for others, right? Good for her. But there's part of me that's genuinely disgruntled with companies like Minted, who have managed to create an online shopping experience one notch above Costco Christmas cards, but with the added guise that you're directly supporting an independent designer. You are, kind of. Designers are invited to submit designs in response to specific design "challenges." If those designs get enough votes from the Minted "community", they'll be included in the site's offerings. In addition to cash prizes for 1st place, 2nd place, and so on, designers get a 6% commission of sales. Wow, 6%. Makes the standard gallery commission of 50% look pretty damn generous.

It's hard enough for independent wedding vendors, you know? It's an incredibly saturated market of indie designers alone, on top of competing with sites like Wedding Paper Divas. And don't even get me started on Etsy. Have you seen that Portlandia sketch called "Reverse Sweatshop"? Season 4, episode 7 (I've been on a bit of a Portlandia kick lately.)



That's how it feels to be a seller on Etsy (or, I'd imagine, an "independent" designer with designs on Minted). There's this weird evolution happening, where it began as a forum for independent designers but ultimately followed the path of any big company, where I find myself trying to figure out ways to mass-produce my previously handmade products, now considered prototypes, so that I can attract wholesale accounts that will charge twice what I earn directly from my customers. Wait, what?

Anyway, just as things were starting to pick up toward the end of summer, after fully reopening my shop just about a year ago now, views, favorites, and sales plummeted. Crickets. Seriously. There was much chatter in the Etsy forums about what might be causing so many previously successful shops to die overnight. I'm still not sure. Things picked up a little as summer turned into fall, and I quickly wrapped up a handful of save-the-date and holiday orders, but by Thanksgiving I was polishing off my resume and applying to "real" jobs. Fast-forward a couple of months and I'm now three plus weeks into my latest office gig. I'm not sure what I'll do with my Etsy shops. Business is so slow that it doesn't really matter. I'm working on another post that digs into this six-year adventure a little more deeply. Stay tuned.